"You could not do this and say you did, if you don't want to sing."

Taylor has a sheet of carol lyrics -- unneeded because she knows the lyrics well, but she needed something for her hands. She thought she had long left behind the natural timidity of being seen by a lot of people at once, but something about it being from singing kind of makes her a tad self-conscious. Maybe because it's one thing to be seen by a whole lot of people watching you fight, and another to sing carols.

She feels silly for this all.