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Dan Sagittarius ([personal profile] hallelujahjunction) wrote in [community profile] nightlogs2024-01-19 06:30 pm

Time Throws Us Along [Closed]

Who: Dan and Elle and Stacia, Dan and Bunny
What: Dan addresses the fallout of his conversation with Miguel.
Where:
When: After Christmas
Warnings/Notes: Cocaine? Cocaine. And all the other Dan warnings.

I. Elle and Stacia

Bunny's gone on a mission for a few weeks, one that Dan can't accompany him on, and the only upside Dan can see to that is that he doesn't immediately have to tell Bunny what's bothering him. Instead, he can use their bathroom counter to do lines of cocaine, which is how he spends the evening, getting coked up and smoking his vape and hitching a ride on the sleigh to Amsterdam to party. He comes back late the next morning wearing someone else's clothes, pockets empty and hair glittered, with a hickey on his neck, and goes straight to sleep, all thoughts of dooming his home universe utterly, temporarily banished.

The downside is, of course, that the comedown from a coke binge lasts for days, and the older he gets the less he feels like he's bouncing back and the more he feels like he's crawling back up from a pit. The exhaustion is the worst of it. Dan's used to feeling full of aches and pains and hangover, but such punishing fatigue sneaks up on him, so a few days after his wild night he's sitting in the communal relaxation area, listening to an audiobook on his iPod, nursing a mug of cocoa with one hand and holding some tissue to a nosebleed with the other, when he just slips off into sleep and doesn't wake until someone nudges him.

II. Bunny

By the time Bunny gets back, Dan's ready to have a proper conversation about all this with him. He was hesitant to bring any of it up, because the emotions around saving Dan's family have always been so heightened. Somehow this happy event has also brought them to the worst arguments of their relationship more than once, has exposed every crack they have, every way they see the world and life and death differently. Dan doesn't want to suggest that they should have done anything differently when the last time he floated that idea, they fought so bitterly and painfully that Dan feels it like a wound that never quite heals.

But after talking to the girls about it and having some time and distance, he's leveled himself out (and sterilized all traces of the cocaine out of their bedroom) and prepared his little mental list of all the things he and Bunny need to catch up on. Not out of apology, but just out of gratefulness that Bunny's back, he's sewn together a new flannel for Bunny, gotten some rosepetals and candles and gussied up the bed. And then he's dressed in his coziest pajamas and settled into bed himself, ready for Bunny to come be cuddled up with and groomed and adored upon his return. He perks up when the door cracks open.

"Hey, honey. Welcome back."
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I. Elle and Stacia

[personal profile] credit_not_blame 2024-01-21 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
"Hey Elle, does Isaac still keep coke in his pockets as an intimidation tactic?" Stacia asks as she and Elle sit down oh-so-casually on either side of Dan. She figures that it's kind to let him wake up first before they launch into the what happened and who do we have to menace portion of the conversation. Because he looks like hell and that is entirely unacceptable.

"Because I saw him once pull a baggie out of his coat and ask someone if they really wanted to go," she continues. Because she's not sure that Isaac has ever de-escalated a situation in his life.
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[personal profile] millenyal_pink 2024-01-21 05:40 am (UTC)(link)
Elle sighs deeply at the question. "It's spiritually awakened. Someone at the caern started growing it himself for personal use. It was a whole thing."

She tucks her legs under herself and gently rests her hand on Dan.

"I don't think he does it much, but he's always got some on him."

She starts petting him softly as both a comfort and a gentle stimulation to help him start waking up properly.
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[personal profile] credit_not_blame 2024-01-21 07:30 am (UTC)(link)
"Of course he does," Stacia says of Isaac, rolling her eyes. She respects him as someone who's made it to his forties in a very dangerous spiritual calling, but he's still ridiculous.

"Spiritually awakened coke turbo-charges our Rage," she explains, because she has decided that Dan is allowed to ask these sorts of questions and get answers instead of sass. Elle can fight with her about it later if she wants, but Stacia's pretty sure she won't. "Which means doing more violence even faster, because clearly we don't do enough of that when completely sober."

She prefers spirit awakened pot herself.

As for Dan's second question, she cocks her head to the side.

"Do we need to tell Bunny?" she asks, gentle and non-judgmental. Dan doing coke isn't great by any stretch of the imagination, but it's a symptom of the actual problem.
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[personal profile] bringinghopewithme 2024-01-22 04:37 am (UTC)(link)
Usually the cold of the pole is deeply unappealing, but Bunny's been underground close enough to the Earth's mantle for such a long time that the cold is a balm for once. His fur is matted and singed, fully burned off in patches, where there isn't black glass still embedded in his fur.

But he's alive and victorious and he smells the roses before he reaches the door. "Aren't you a sight for sore eyes," he says, shutting the door hard and leaping into bed. "I won, in case you were wondering."

That shortens a long story, so that he can stretch out and get assisted getting the glass out of his fur. Getting groomed and adored is a major perk of marriage.

When Bunny's a little cleaned up, he smooths his paw over Dan's hair and settles in to be relaxed for the first time in weeks. "How's it been here?" he asks, stretching his arm out so Dan can help him with a bit of embedded glass on the inside of his forearm.
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[personal profile] bringinghopewithme 2024-01-22 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
Bunny murmurs, glancing at Dan sideways. "That's ominous," he says, ear twitching as Dan removes the glass from his skin. He turns his arm so Dan has a better angle at the glass. "How many deep breaths should I take?"
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[personal profile] millenyal_pink 2024-01-22 05:18 am (UTC)(link)
Elle's tone is defeated as she confirms Dan's thought. "Cocaine bear."

The information Stacia shares gets a side-glance, but no real reaction. She already decided Dan gets to know this stuff, too. She just didn't know Stacia's stance on it until now.

"It can also provide a big boost of bloodthirsty hyperactivity. Especially when you explode a whole brick of it into your face."

She opens her mouth respond to Dan's question, but Stacia beats her to the punch-- with exactly what she was going to say.

The pressure of her hand gets a bit firmer now that Dan's awake.
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[personal profile] bringinghopewithme 2024-01-22 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
Bunny listens quietly, holding back the nuh-uh he naturally wants to launch in with, holding back on rolling his eyes at Miguel's catastrophizing, at Miguel's insistence that somehow, Dan would be more virtuous for suffering, for not trying to make something better of what had been done to him.

Truly, Miguel's attacking him with that, not that Miguel knows him enough to realize that he was the one he ought to have been attacking. It matters more to him just now that Miguel attacked Dan at all. It matters to him, too, that Miguel attacks the very concept of not accepting that the pain the universe has to dish out to you is what a person should accept because what if the worst should happen?, and he expects that whatever Miguel's center is, it's far from being hope.

"Well I'm glad I don't have to be the first one to say so," Bunny says, dryly. "What d'you reckon, before I tell you what I think?"

Because it's so easy for him to jump straight into telling Dan what he thinks and why he's right, but he's done the work to learn how to wait for what Dan thinks before telling Dan what he's sure Dan must be thinking.
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[personal profile] credit_not_blame 2024-01-22 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
Stacia makes a mental note to follow up on "cocaine bear" later, because that sounds like a thing and she likes to be included in things.

"I'm not 100% sure, but I think it would just be regular coke to a normal person," she says. "It's more about us and the way our magic works than the coke or the alcohol or whatever. Unless you know more, Elle?"

She beams and rewards Dan with a hand squeeze when he confirms that he's going to talk to Bunny about this. That's a huge step for him, and she's thrilled to see it.

Then he brings up Miguel and she sighs. She's not sure what he did, but it's certainly going to make her want to smack him upside the head.

"Seven feet tall, fancy spandex, bossy as hell even though it's not as cute as when I do it?" she says. "Yeah, I know him."
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[personal profile] millenyal_pink 2024-01-22 07:11 am (UTC)(link)
Elle's other arm on her far side, so Dan can't see that it's still missing. More importantly, Stacia isn't being forced to see it every time she looks in Elle's direction.

"Not really, I wasn't the one messing with that stuff."

Dan's willingness to talk to his husband gets a soft smile, but her expression drops when he brings up Miguel.

"Good planner, bad boss," is her addition.
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[personal profile] credit_not_blame 2024-01-22 07:51 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a good thing in this case that Dan's nervous gnawing and abused nose make his terrible voice even worse, because coping with the sounds makes the words themselves less immediate. And Stacia needs the distance right now, because the problem with being an empathetic Gaian shifter is that other people's pain is upsetting. Especially when it's someone you already care about. And Stacia has to wrangle not just her own reaction, but keep an eye on Elle's in case she needs to haul Dan out of claw range and send Elle to fight a chair.

She locks eyes on Elle and flexes her fingers as she allows Dan's words to pass over her in their fits and starts, prepared for Elle to react as poorly as Stacia herself might otherwise.
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[personal profile] bringinghopewithme 2024-01-24 02:01 am (UTC)(link)
Bunny takes in a long sigh. Well, he thinks, if it's true and Dan isn't around to see it, I will be.

He doubts that would make Dan feel better, but he doubts even that Miguel is right. They did the best they could with the information available to them. Even if Miguel has insight they don't, he has no reason to believe that Miguel is infallible regarding the laws of time disruption. Miguel hasn't given him any.

If it is true, it's awful, and until it's proven one or the other, he isn't going to alter the odds by ruminating.

"Nah. Nothing to do about it just now." Not when this world has its grip on them as tight as it does, not when the crisis here is apocalyptic enough to need all their attention.

He snorts with frustration. "If there's infinite worlds besides this one, what I want to know is why it keeps calling in backup guardians that aren't other versions of us."

A little salt sneaks in that he has to work with a bossy, aggressive stranger like Miguel at all, instead of more versions of the team he already knows and works well with, where
he is the bossy, aggressive known quantity.

"D'you think this is going to make it impossible to get him to work with the group, going forward?"
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[personal profile] millenyal_pink 2024-01-24 08:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Elle's expressions grows more blank as Dan explains. Her hand is paused mid-stroke. There's twitching in her jaw as she clenches her teeth.

She's heard parts of Dan's story before, but Miguel's response... Deep breaths.

She slowly removes her hand from Dan and rests it in her lap. Her nails dig into the palm of her hand. Her fists trembles with contained rage. She isn't making eye contact, just staring forward and attempting to keep her composure.

"Fuck that," Elle snarls. Her tone is venomous and far more aggressive than she would normally allow.

She isn't at risk for a Frenzy-- yet, but she glances at Stacia to make sure the Shadow Lord is prepared. Just in case.
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[personal profile] credit_not_blame 2024-01-24 09:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Stacia nods in acknowledgement of Elle's eye-contact, then turns (most) of her attention back to Dan and his situation.

"Hokay," she says, spreading her fingers wide and pressing her palms together to help keep her focused. "I also do not have a background in, like, time travel or reality science or whatever, but I'm pretty sure that traveling backward in time to save your family in particular doesn't do nearly much damage to a universe as was done to the universe the Rig was in. Right? That universe was completely fucked by what they did to it with the go-away bombs, but the cracks were only big enough for a comparative handful of people to show up from other realities."

Stacia's been trying not to drop F-bombs in Santa's workshop, but this is well worth the risk of getting dinged for language on the naughty-nice scale.
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[personal profile] millenyal_pink 2024-01-27 12:09 am (UTC)(link)
"I, personally, think it's pretty fucked up of him to assume that just because shit works one way in his universe-- or multi-verse, or whatever-- that that's how it must work everywhere. I think he has no right to accuse you of causing that kind of harm without knowing more."

Elle's voice is forcibly even but incredibly tense. Her shoulders are trembling.

Your readings are off, Miguel had told her. He said that she should look out for 'glitching', because thats what happens to anomalies.

"It's one thing to investigate if there might be an issue, but to tell you that-" she cuts her self off in disgust.
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[personal profile] credit_not_blame 2024-01-29 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
"In his defense," Stacia says with a pointed look at Elle, "he did tell me that he was a reality repair person, and I imagine that's a job with some trauma involved."

Much like, oh, anything involving the supernatural.

"But yes, he absolutely should have asked some questions before jumping to the worst." She snaps her fingers. "And, as bonus evidence, a witch had already offered you a time-travel solution! It was already on the table as an option. She wouldn't have offered it if it were going to break your reality, which she also lives in, right?"
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[personal profile] millenyal_pink 2024-02-01 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
Stacia's pointed look gets returned. "That's a reason, not an excuse."

Elle's not about to say she's capable of being objective about this particular subject, but she does try to keep her damage from becoming other peoples' problem, when possible.

"I know someone who has experienced with fucked up timelines and alternate realities. From the little he's told me I don't think total-universe-destruction is assured. I can't say how it works in the world you changed, but if nothing else it shows that Miguel's rules aren't multi-versal."

Isaac is famously reticent, but she's picked things up over the years. She knows that he remembers his life from a reality that no longer exists, and that it's fucked him up more than he'd care to admit.

"You may not be the only one here who's done something to alter their timeline or reality. This may not be an isolated incident-- it could happen again to someone else."

It's her, Elle's the one who's altered her reality, but she's not going to share that with the class. There's still the possibility that other people have as well.

She catches Stacia's eye again, this time to get some reassurance that they're going to figure out a way to handle Miguel. Even if they don't plan it right this second, it needs to happen.
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[personal profile] credit_not_blame 2024-02-07 06:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Stacia opens her mouth to argue back with Elle that what she means is that Miguel may have a reason to be stupid and thus might not need to be physically slammed into a few walls, but then snaps it shut and breathes through her nose. Not the point, she and Elle can argue about who's going to handle the Miguel portion of this problem later. Right now, they're dealing with Dan.

"Yeah, well, I want to put all the werewolves back home in a hamster ball and shake them until the stupid falls out," she says. "Miguel can want things all he likes, and he's welcome to politely explain why messing with our own pasts might be a bad idea, but he's not the boss of this gang of misfits. He made an attempt at being mister bossy-pants, and I declared him team secretary instead."

Dan probably saw Miguel's big information-organizing announcement, but she's not sure if he saw the responses. Given Dan's general Dan-ness, it's entirely possible he buried it under a pillow and did something else until everyone else stopped talking. So, you know, just making things clear for him.

The laugh is a relief, and Stacia smiles into it. She also declines to argue with the logic behind it -- again not the point here.

"Yeah, I don't think anyone wants that kind of pressure on them," she says.
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[personal profile] millenyal_pink 2024-02-07 10:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Elle takes another deep breath and rubs her hand over her face. Stacia visibly holding her tongue reminds her that she should probably do the same.

"Yeah, no one was taking his attempt seriously. We even got backup from people who had worked with him before on why it might not be a good idea. I think he gets that that's not gonna fly here but it may take him a bit to transition and act accordingly, especially if he's used to being the boss."

She has more to say, but none of it would be productive right now. Dan needs to be able to realize that the situation may not be what he thought, Elle and Stacia need to figure out how to deal with Miguel, and Elle needs to keep her shit together long enough to get through all of this.

She takes another deep breath, trying to release some of the tension she's holding in her body (and burying some of her anger deep in her gut to be dealt with Later), and places her hand back on Dan to continue the soft petting she was doing before.
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[personal profile] credit_not_blame 2024-02-12 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
Stacia blinks in momentary surprise, then grins and pats Dan's hand. Look at that, personal growth! Good job, Dan! "Well, it's not like I'm big on taking orders either: I just take advice and sometimes requests from people I've decided are worth listening to."

Then, since she's already touching his hand, she takes it in both of her own. "To be fair, you didn't drag us into this so much as not try to run when we cornered you while you slept. Which, frankly, would have been a perfectly logical choice. So thank you for letting us help."
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[personal profile] millenyal_pink 2024-02-13 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
"No one here has any authority over me and if they try to order me around I will simply bite them."

She's only partially joking, but the lightening mood lets some of the tension bleed from her posture.

"That includes you. You didn't drag us into anything."

Sorry, Dan, the reason they're getting involved isn't because of any pressure or obligation-- they just care about you.
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[personal profile] credit_not_blame 2024-02-14 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Stacia giggles because while fleeing would have been an understandable impulse, it certainly wouldn't have been successful overall. Even if they didn't immediately give chase as though he were a squirrel, they would have hunted him down in other ways. But they didn't have to, because Dan politely acquiesced!

"Yeah, sure," she says, standing up herself. "The bed's going to be a comfier place to recover than a chair. You set for snacks and water and stuff?"