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Bradward Boimler ([personal profile] boldboimler) wrote in [community profile] nightlogs 2024-03-02 02:47 am (UTC)

[Unbelievable. This guy.]

I don't mean a vacation. I mean a few off-duty hours each day. Back on board the Cerritos, it'd just be a half hour to have a drink. An hour or two in the holodeck.

[Emphasis.] With friends.

It's not like we leave the ship if we're not on leave, so we're always still right there if there's a red alert.

[Boimler looks thoughtful. He's not always the most caring or gentle person. He cares but he's not always good at empathizing or extending a kindness.]

[But there's something about this that's at least a little bit familiar.]

[And something a little sad about someone who clearly cares about helping and protecting the dimensional fabric not really seeming to have connections.]

You know, at one point all I cared about was work. In my case, I wasn't trying to save the...universes, I was just trying to get promoted, but still, other people weren't much of a priority. At least socially.

[Or even worse, he saw them as a hurdle, worth throwing under the bus to advance, like when he almost narced on Mariner just for a chance to impress Captain Freeman, over Mariner's genuinely benevolent extracurriculars that cut past Starfleet red tape to help people.]

But it wasn't until I started to make room for them that I started to feel like - like I'm actually getting closer to...whatever it is I'm trying to be.

[Something better.]

Sometimes you need to make room for some good influences. [A pause, as he considers Mariner's...everything.] Or bad ones helping you shake things up a little.

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