"I don't remember the last time I wasn't worried that any good thing I had might be destroyed if I looked away too long."
Dan shrugs and finishes his drink of rum. He doesn't pour himself more, although he considers it; he would if not for the company. He's being honest. Everything good that he has - and at this point, it's quite a few things - feels ephemeral, almost like he's under some sort of spell that's about to break. He doesn't trust it to be there each morning when he wakes up.
He would never tell Bunny that he hates when Bunny goes on adventures and leaves him to wake up alone and convince himself that everything's fine by himself. He would never tell the teens here that each time he sees them he walks himself through what it would feel like to drink through their funerals. But it's there under the surface. Dan believes the world is beautiful and good and that each person has so much potential worth nurturing. He has optimism, and yet he's always, always braced for the worst.
"You can join me in the ranks of those who couldn't put up with a desk job. The idea almost makes me break out into hives." Dan laughs and falls back out of Spanish. "Lots of things sound stupid out loud. Don't mean that they're stupid in our heads. Just means it gets fouled up in translation to our tongues."
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Dan shrugs and finishes his drink of rum. He doesn't pour himself more, although he considers it; he would if not for the company. He's being honest. Everything good that he has - and at this point, it's quite a few things - feels ephemeral, almost like he's under some sort of spell that's about to break. He doesn't trust it to be there each morning when he wakes up.
He would never tell Bunny that he hates when Bunny goes on adventures and leaves him to wake up alone and convince himself that everything's fine by himself. He would never tell the teens here that each time he sees them he walks himself through what it would feel like to drink through their funerals. But it's there under the surface. Dan believes the world is beautiful and good and that each person has so much potential worth nurturing. He has optimism, and yet he's always, always braced for the worst.
"You can join me in the ranks of those who couldn't put up with a desk job. The idea almost makes me break out into hives." Dan laughs and falls back out of Spanish. "Lots of things sound stupid out loud. Don't mean that they're stupid in our heads. Just means it gets fouled up in translation to our tongues."